There’s an Ache in the Heart

June 24, 2009

This afternoon after work I sat down in the upstairs room to check our e-mail, just like always. There was a message from Al and for a minute I thought he was going to tell me that he had received the wedding card we sent on Monday for Tim and Debbie. But then when I opened it my heart sank. Instead he was telling us that Tim was gone. My heart just hurts so bad.

We found Tim Krekel at the Bluebird Cafe in 1998. He knocked our socks off. We didn’t even know who he was, but by the end of the night we were his. We bought the CD at the door on the way out, and when we got home we hit the internet. We found out where he was playing in his homeotown of Louisville, and began the time honored pleasure of planning our vacations around when we could see him. It was not unusual to hit the road at 4:30 when work was done and head down south to make a late show at Air Devils. And it was always a great show. But moreover, it was Tim.

I remember very clearly our first trip to Louisville to see Tim. We left in the morning to get there early in case we would have to fight for a seat. We settled in the hotel room and then headed over to the bar. I don’t remember the name, it’s changed since then, but we were the first ones there. It was us and the bartender, and he couldn’t figure out what we were doing there so early. People trickled in, and by the time the band started playing the room was full. The bartender must have told Tim about us, because he made his way to our table. He made us feel like we belonged there with him. He asked us where we were from and what we wanted to hear. And then he played the songs we were longing for. And it was always that way. Every single time we went to see him over the years. And tonight my heart hurts.

I asked John how it is that a person that we really only connected with every so often could have such a profound effect on us. He sad that it was because from the very first time we saw Tim, he welcomed us as friends. He brought us into his world for the time that we were with him. And when we were not with him, we had his music. And it became a part of our life together. His message was simple, love everybody. And that is just what he did.

If you have been reading here for awhile you will remember me sharing him with you here, and here, and here. John wrote about him here. Early on  you couldn’t find him on youTube, but now there are three pages full, and MySpace to boot. Already they are saying the music lives on, and there is some solace there, but for tonight my heart just hurts.

He would have wanted us to celebrate his life, and so that is just what we are doing. It’s a little after 11:00 on a Wednesday night, and were sitting here listening to Tim sing. And we’re singing along, and dancing too. Because that’s just the way it is and always will be. Here’s one for Tim, on the all night radio.


7 Responses to “There’s an Ache in the Heart”

  1. Joh Says:

    Louisville will never be the same for us. We will miss Tim and think about him often. What a talent and what a wonderful person. Love everybody…. willi

  2. WT Says:

    Oh no! That really is sad news, I’m impervious to all the Jackson mania that the networks are caught up in right now, but this comes as a jolt. Tim has been at the top of my playlist since the day your CDs arrived. Very sad…

  3. Jenni in KS Says:

    What a beautiful tribute. Thank you for sharing your memories and the music. I’d never heard of him before, but I enjoyed the songs here and on WT’s blog so much that I will have to look for more by him. This one in particular is just a really great song.

  4. What a story and tribute… I’m so sorry for this loss.


  5. dilling Says:

    aaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh, man….i love the music of his you sent us….lovelovelove it….as you could tell how much he loved playing it.
    i guess i should get out those cds again and give a good, heartfelt and thoughtful listen.
    thank you so much for sending out his voice, his words to us…that makes your connection even deeper, and i am sure he thanks you for it.

  6. margarethall Says:

    Hi….I am so very sorry for the loss of your friend and musician. I am sure that you heart does hurt and when we lose someone that we like to follow. From YouTube, he sounds mellow and fun to hear…Again, I am sorry…

  7. Cazzie!!! Says:

    Absolutely awesome, you are lucky people to have been in his life, and now you are spreading his love through this tribute..what more could a person ask for?

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